Indeed, sometimes we see people like us and we cannot imagine the life they have behind them. In Caritas we attend to many people, almost “all” those who come expecting immediate solutions, food, help, comfort, or whatever. When many come, you run the risk of not “seeing” the person, but the number, of not seeing where they have been, nor what they have lived, but “what they are asking for”.
There are stories of families, of children who come alone, of women with children…
They come to Spain wounded and with expectations. Some by choice and others pushed by the conflicts that drive them away from their land, their homes and from the embrace of their families. When you hear stories that you can’t even imagine in a movie, you realize how big the world is and the human wickedness, but also how much we need God, and to have a willing mind and heart.
In the midst of that accompaniment, sometimes in the venting you verbalize being “at odds with God”, “how a good God, has allowed me to have suffered so much!”. “Where was God when I was threatened with death?” “Where was God when they threw me out of my house and stole everything I had?”
It happened to me…by inspiration, I was in the office and it occurred to me to invite one of these wounded people to participate in Easter in the parish. A Triduum lived in Community. She doesn’t say no, but I wasn’t sure she would come. She has the courage to do so. She sits in the last pew of the church, as if wanting to see but from afar, near the door. I respect the distance, and the space, but I remain attentive.
Holy Thursday. She gets excited and says she has been calm, after six years without stepping foot in a church. She liked it, she felt peace. She says that her problems have stayed for a moment at the door, everything has stopped. She has been taking medication for months to be able to sleep, she says she has breathed.
Good Friday. On the cross are nailed all the news that speak of the Christs that continue to be crucified every day. And her famous question “Where is God?” is answered and it turns out that God is suffering next to each person, and what we have to ask is where are the men and women of good will to bring the caress and comfort of God to those who are desperate?“
She comes out of this celebration very touched, she says she has felt that what has happened in the church ”was true”… but that she needs time to digest and understand. She needs so much time that she does not take the leap to participate in Saturday, the feast of the Resurrection.
She thanked me for inviting her by cell phone. She says she sleeps better, that she feels better. I would like to think that the door of reconciliation is opening, and on that path, in that experience, I hope she will soon meet the Risen One who never abandons us, who always sustains us, who loves us madly.
We will continue to accompany slowly and attentively.
Carmen Aranda, CLM Spain
